I want!

I want. Something we all say every onse in a while. Some more than others. I am one of those who say it way to often. I like to think it's because I never have any, but it's not. I do have money, I just spend it wrong. I spend it on food, because I get so little each time, so instead of saving up, I spent it on energy drinks and junkfood. But I reasently baught a pair of flatform sneakers, they only cost 3€ but I've wanted them for so long! They're a bit big, but I'm planning on painting them whit an outer space theme! Wish me luck!

I'm gonna continue on sipping on my tea, go on tumbler, read a book and go to sleep! have a fantastic evening! Kisses -N

Fangirl?

Today I started thinking about my obsession with music and my ''fangirling''. Now the thing is, I listen to alot of music, and I like most of it. I love music for music and I don't care if it's ''embarrassing'' or ''out'' or ''mainstream'' if it sounds good to me, I listen to it. That's one thing the people around me and all over the world are forgetting, that it's about the music and not who sings it, or who likes it and who listens to it, where it comes from and what kind it is. It's really about how it sounds to you and how it makes you feel. And fangirling, there's nothing wrong with that! If you like an artist and the artists music you should fangirl if you want to. No matter who it is! Fandoms are nice, makes you connect to people with the same intrest and people who can help you if you have problems. We stick around and love the artist and the music and eachother. Some people go way to far for the artists, like #cutforbieber etc,etc. But that's the only thing everyone who's not in the fandom sees, nothing else intrests them. Only the negative things. Not the ''I joined this fandom and got friends who saved my life'' or #makebieberhappy #makejustinsmile. I can proudly say I'm a belieber and a directioner, do I listen to only them? No, but I love them and I enjoy listening to them, looking at them and connecting with them. So why would I ever care what other people say? I can listen to 1D, Beyonce, Lady GaGa, MJ, Avicii, Eminem, Miley Cyrus, Toto, Bob marley, Apocalyptika, Justin Bieber, Coldplay, Greenday, U2, Metallica, P square, the beatles etc. if I want to and if I feel like it. So if you're a real heavy metal lover but you also like 1D, blast it whenever! Don't be ashamed of music, music is love and love is the closest thing to magic we humans have gotten! So listen to whoever you want to and be happy that you enjoy more than one music just because society or anyone else says you can't.

I'm gonna go listen to whatever and read some books. See you lovies later! Kisses, night. xx

I want!

Halloween!

Yesterday we had a little halloween ''get together'' and it was fun! me and Skoobs were the only onew dressed up tho... And Nathan was a ninja but that doesn't count. But it was chill. Lots of music and deep talk! Sat up late at night to watch the shaytards vlog! It was so heart melting, and if you klick HERE you can watch it! They show the whole prosess so if you don't like that, you can just skip those parts. I got emotional watchng it, because it's so beautiful!

Shit down the toilet.

Ok, so I'm feeling shit again... Fucking hate this... I'm pissed at everyone or, just this one person and I can't get over it. I don't know why but it just annoys the F out of me. Anywho, when it comes to october I usually get very bored and start putting makeup on my face every now and then, so here are 3 differant looks I created, kinda united with my feelings and what I see in myself...

Taco time!

It's taco time guys! So on saturday Me, Melinda, Kim and Robin made some tortillas. They were yummy. 

Instagrammers...

School

Eyo! I'm in school and our teacher is sick so we get to do whatever. I should really go home, clean my room and pack for tomorrows camp. It's a 3 day camp for film stuff. We're supposed to get to know each other and get closer as a class, but we're already super close, so I hope it only gets better from here. We have so many stupid pictures on the school computers so Imma post some here

Top o the mornin to ya

Good morning! I'm all ill and stuff:/ I think it's because my mom is and all the stress usually gives me a flu. So to get rid of it, I think I'm staying in today, if no one asks me out, wich they probs wont. But that gives me time to have fun with my new computer. and drink coffee and tea<3 I'm so happy to finnally have a computer of my own. Now I can do schoolstuff and watch series and movies. Our home computer doesn't have sound and is slow as fu. So now I don't have to worry about anyone else breaking it. Yay, now I think I'm gonna try to edit a video. Cheerios!

IHANA KAHVILA

There's a cute Little cafee in Helsinki. I Went there with Axel. It was so nice and the weather was Amazing.

HELSINKI

I've been to the city a lot since school started, it's been so much fun to explore my own city for ones. First I went to meet Johannes, who was waiting for me there (surprise, surprise, I wasn't the first one to be there) We went to the open stage where all the grannies were sitting and we sat a couple of feet away from them. We had a good chat and moved on to the city and snapped some pics. The next day I was with Amos and again I was late. But we went shopping and eating, it was fun. I came home in time and it was all good. On saturday I went to the city with my brother to do some shopping for him, we found a couple things for him and for me. After a day in the cit we quickly went to my sister and then my mom drove me to Jesus Power Night. It was so much fun! On sunday I chilled out and in the evening I went to the movies with Axel and Johannes. We saw wolverine and it was AMAZING. I came hone half past eleven so my dad got a bit frustrated, whoops. Yesterday I babysat my nephew and he was screaming just about all the time until he fell asleep. Today I'm gonna babysit him again. Maybe he'll remember me and won't scream as much. Now I just have to concentrate on school so I'll ttyl

At the movies

Lunch

Coffee

OOTD

             

WATTPAD

I discovered wattpad a while back, and it's one of the best things ever. Even tho it takes up way to much time, it's a great way of reading and finding new striving authors. It's an app that you can write books or novels or whatever on, and publish them there. You can also read other peoples stories, novels and books. I've rear ''our song'' and I'm reading ''our everlasting melody'' the sequel. I love the storie so much and I can't whait until the author publishes another chapter. I higly recomend this site, klich RIGHT HERE to read our song, or explore wattpad!

Roller coaster

The only ride we didn't go on.. Or the old roller coaster that is. I was with my friends in a theme park and we had a blast! Or at least I did. We went there wen it opened at 11 and spent the day there. There were times when the computer addicts got tired, but girl I did not spent all that money on two rides, so I told them that and we went on most of them. It was the perfect day. 

My boo came home today and I can't wait to see her tomorrow. I just want to hug her and talk to her about everything and eat with her and all that good stuff that we always do. Can't wait. 

Now I'm talking with the boys again on Skype, can't believe I taught I was gonna go to sleep early today, oh well sleep can wait.

Hair

I want my old hair back. Actually I just want my hair to grow! I cut it a while ago and it's growing because I haven't been using heat on it but it's still one of the slowest growing thing ever! feels like my leghair even grows faster than it, witch it probably does considering I shave and there are no split ends and stuff like that. Grossed out yet? you should be. Any potatoes, I used to always straighten my hair and I loved it that way, but I'm trying to grow it out so I don't anymore... and I wear it in a but ALL the time because I have an afro, kind of. So what should I do? I'm gonna try to figure something out and when I do, I'll definitely show you! An'd I'm gonna try to make a summer haul because I've been kinda obsessed with watching them along with favorites videos. I'm gonna try! But we all know I'm not good with keeping my promises here, so I won't promise I'll just hope that I do something.

pic of my old straight hair.

Be kind.

Me and my friends were just chilling, two of us eating springrolls as we talked, none of us expecting anything like this to happen. He was eating, I had seen him earlier that day, complaining about being hungry. He looked like he was just gonna talk to us, as most alcoholics or "bums" usually did. I wasn't scared because most of them are actually wery nice so I don't mind anyone talking to me, even when they smell like they hadn't showerd in weeks and pissed themselves several times. But he did something very unexpected! He gave us money. It wasn't all that much, but in my eyes it was. It was enough for all of us 4 girls to get one springroll each. He told us he had children and grandchildren of his own, and that it had to be fair, either everyone got to eat or no one. He was very happy to give and it made us all very surprised and we had no idea what to do. 

He gave us so much even when he didn't have much! We have so much more than him an he knew that and altho this was the case, he decided to give. I want to be as good as this man. I trully wish him the best and bless him. I wish more people would be like him! The world needs more people like him. So next time a homeless person tries to talk to you, be kind. And next time you see the chance to be helpfull hopefull or kind, be so. Give and expect nothing in return! Because when you put a smile on someones face it only doesn't give them hope and joy, it gives you it too. So go out and make someones day! Smile it looks good on you. 

Xx

Shopping with myself

Today I was so bored I decided to go to a thrift store, but it was closed so I went to the city instead. I was there for a while and spent so much money! But I think that it was worth it. After a few hours of music in my ears and clothes in front of me, I went to the supermarket to buy groceries to my grandma and I picked up a mascara and some sunglasses andcotton pads   at the same time! Had 10€worth  of coupons so halla! +the mascara and sunglasses were almost 50% off! Great deals! I don't thing I bought anything full price, except for makeup wipes, but they were much needed! After I got home we made some special brownies with my grandma. Didn't eat them tho. And I made Stephen! My pet apple bird... Left it on the table for grandma.. Shes gonna go gaga on me for doing that! I'll post a picture down below. Tomorrow I'm gonna try to go to the thrift store again, hoping to find jeans! I'll show you why later. Right now I'm gonna fall asleep to some Hold the Line and Rosanna by toto! Have a great day, night, morning whatever it is where you are! 

Stephen

Todays nails

Ootd

New life?

Sometimes I have major body image issues, I don't like my body. I don't feel comfortable in it. I feel like I'm way to big and that I should loose some weight. I think that almost every teenager some days have body image issues. I'm not afraid to admit that yes, I am a big girl. I feel like I'm supposed to be a small girl with a big attitude. An yes if I loose weight I will be really really little because of my height. But if I don't feel secure enough to go to the beach and enjoy my time there, or wearing the clothes I want to wear and feel absolutely fabulous there is no point in being like this. I wouldn't say I have a super ugly body, no that's not the thing. But it's just not mine. I want to feel better and more comfortable in my own skin. I feel unhealthy and I wanna change that! So now that I've been thinking and planning to get healthier for ages, I'm gonna start eating healthy and working out. Today was/is day one! It's going good, went running to the beach and swam for a while. It was raining so the water was really warm. It was wonderful! I think I'm gonna go again tomorrow! I also had a wonderful breakfast! Pics below! Now that I'm putting this out, there's no backing down!